Saturday, February 12

* *Unreadable * *

are you just being nice?
or being special?
because i cannot tell

you look at me like that
then you turn away
and look somewhere else

but who cares.

i'm happy inside
we are friends
and if it happens, it happens

Thus quoth Joie at 3:12 PM

Sunday, February 6

* *Save the Best for Last * *

sometimes the very thing you're looking for
is the one thing you can't see

and now we're standing face to face
isn't this world a crazy place?
just when i thought our chance had passed
you go and save the best for last

-- vanessa williams

Thus quoth Joie at 8:21 PM

Saturday, February 5

* *Tears * *

why did this have to happen
why did this have to end

i drive myself to depths of insanity
wanting you the way that i do

after all...
after all...
you never looked my way before
you never saw me there

but i'll always see you
even with my eyes closed
i can see you
even with my heart in tears
i can see you
even when the rain stings and numbs my senses
through the water and the shit

you're always there.

but not for me.

Thus quoth Joie at 4:10 PM

Friday, February 4

* *Unendurable * *

i hate this
i truly hate this
it hurts and twists inside
because i don't know what goes on
in your mind

please don't do this to me
don't come up to me then shut up
don't give me a rose then snatch it back
because leading me on is like
leading a calf to slaughter

but
you aren't leading me on
maybe i don't even exist
that i'm reading too much in your actions
that we can only be friends

yes this is it
that's all you have for me
i'm glad this only lasted for a week or so
but i know
i know i'll always be fond of you

you make my heart sing, for joy, for grief, for life.

Thus quoth Joie at 7:55 PM

Wednesday, February 2

* *How Dare You * *

How dare you
How dare you make her upset?
Screw up her life?
Make her feel guilty for something she didn't do?

How dare you
How dare you ever return to her life?
Destroy her faith?
Turn the world she'd rebuilded upside down?

How dare you
How dare you--
With fake pretensions and false emotions
Make her cry, weep and despair all over again?

Thus quoth Joie at 11:27 PM

* *Even If * *

Even if you don't love me
At least you don't hate me

Even if "we" don't exist
At least there's "you" and "me"

Even if you've lost all your limbs
At least you've still got your heart

Even if you're all alone in this world
At least you know that I will always be fond of you.

Thus quoth Joie at 10:43 PM